"On the floor"

I killed my inner child today
So I wouldn't have to laugh anymore
My face hurts so bad when I smile now

I raped my feminine side today
She was just a whore
Had it coming for awhile now

Exposing my deceitful sides
Try not to lie to them anymore
Diving through windows in my mind
Leaves me bleeding on the floor

I quieted my little voice inside
It screamed at me too long
The words I understand don't make any sense

I met the real me and hated him
For knowing that I'm wrong
So fake I don't even exist

(Author - Henkul)

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Poem - "Today"

I screamed into the wind
It blew back in my face
So full of rage & hatred it knocked me down

I jumped into the ocean
The water was soaked up
My dry personality helped me not to drown

I looked up at the sky
The sun stopped shining
It was smothered by my dark cloud

Seems like I'm always
Being pushed away
Wishing I would just get pushed out

Is hurting all I am capable of
Or is that just what I've been told

I stood in the rain
It burned my skin
Instead of washing me clean

I layed down in the grass
And made a dry brown spot
My presence is so obscene

I try to re-position
My huge disposition
I still seem cruel & mean

I am not my own friend
No one can see my face
I never speak I always scream

Is this how everything is
Or just how everything seems

(Author - Henkul)